Forgive me for writing English although I know that German people have excellent English skills ;-)
Today I'm so damn tired so I just want to concentrate on one language. I hang out with my friends yesterday night and we tattled aaaalll night long about typical girls' stuff. Who's the hottest, cutest, most athletic boy in school. Why Britney Spears is still not it. Reasons for not buying a LV Speedy, Michael Kors with MK sign all over it or a Tory Burch (because e-v-e-r-y-b-o-d-y carries them!) and about beauty. I got home late and for some reason woke up at 7 a.m. I couldn't await my weight control and was so happy to see a 55 on the weighing machine. 55 kg !!! I would have thought to see a 56 again since I have my menstruation and usually I gain weight due to water retention but not this time. It's so weird and incredible :-)
I experienced it so many times... I lost weight and was motivated about losing some more in the following days and by then my menstruation thwart my plans. That's the reason why I was so puzzled and relieved.
Today I just made up a few plans about my meals. First of all, I'm going to have my Pretzels. It must seem so strange to everybody else that I eat Pretzels every single day. But they somehow helped me to lose weight at the very beginning. I always had breakfast late, ate a pretzel and didn't need anyting else for hours. So I really feel safe when I eat them. For Linner I will eat an avocado with a lot of salt and lemon and an egg. I do not eat eggs very often. I only like hard-boiled eggs and of course you should avoid eating the yolk but seriously I just don't like eating only egg white. For that reason I rarely eat it and thanks gosh it makes my stomach feel really full afterwards so I don't need anyting else. And I also know that avocado is known as being one of the vegetables with the most amount of fat. BUT it's positive fat and yes I know it's a NO-GO for ANA. And that's exactly the reason why I don't know to which kind of eating disorder I belong. Today I won't eat any cupcake but a bit of chocolate. My mom bought little chocolate packages with a total amount of 100 cal. That sounds good enough to try it out.
I still don't know if I shall do some sports today. It's raining outside and I feel so damn tired -.- I definitely have to do some homework, my next exam will be on Wednesday. I hate to take exams. I wonder if life is just about passing exams?! That sounds frustrating, doesn't it?!
By the way, I was wondering if my blog could get deleted because of it's content. I know some topics can be triggering and again if you don't know anything about Pro-Ana or Pro-Mia, LEAVE my blog. For me this blog is like my diary and the way to catch up with other Bloggers. I don't want to be responsible for people who WANT to have an eating disorder. It's not funny, it's not easy and it's definitely not harmless.
Have a great weekend!
XOXO, Yuna
Hey Yuna,
ReplyDeleteCongratulation!!!!
I agree with you in the egg- and avocado-argument.
I think that pro Anas in total search perfection... But who´s perfect with an non-healthy hair? So, our body needs proteins and vitamins (B, C, A, K vitamins, Biotin, iron, zinc...) to keep our hair, skin, nails, immune system and our metabolism healthy and strong.
Specially the B vitamins benefit the metabolism! And Avocado contains a lot of them, same as it contains vitamins C, E, A and K, iron, Zinc and Biotin... Eggs contain a lot of proteins (the yolk more than the egg-wight)...
In my opinion we shouldn´t stop ingest this necessary food, we only should take care about the total calories we eat a day and be careful with the carbs.
Hi Chris- thank you my dear!! <3
ReplyDeleteYou are absolutely right. There are so many ingredients on Ana's NO-GOs List with which I totally disagree. That's why I am attracted to Ana but feel a special distance at the same time. According to Ana I should only eat 600 cal per day but that's just not realistic. I try to eat less than 1000 cal and still lose weight. I wish you much success for the next week! xoxo Yuna
Yuna! I completely agree!! Eat 600 kcal a day only are able to persevere trained, accustomed Anas... All the others persevere it a few days and finally they become a snack-attack... So, finally they get into the catch-22 situation: Eat to sparsely -> snack attack -> feel bad -> Eat to sparsely...
ReplyDeleteI only wanna say that to avoid this it´s suffice eat a bit more... If you normally need 2000 kcal a day and you only eat 1000 in 7 days you save 7000 kcal! That´s the necessary amount to loose 1 kg! That´s enough and your hair etc. doesn´t have to suffer!
Yeah that's right. Although right now I feel so not motivated :-( Even when I skip meals I just don't lose weight. But probably I am too impatient. My goal this week is to get under 55 but I doubt this is going to happen.
ReplyDeleteWell, this depends on your metabolism how fast you can loose weight...
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